sorry for the wait, it seems that's just what we modern girls have to do ALL THE FRIKING TIME!

Well my last few weeks contain this : One of my best friends and now ex-boyfriend decided in his depression that if he couldn't have me in his life that he had nothing left to live for and I being the stupidly hopeful type thought the few days of no phone calls was him getting over me.....WRONG in all senses of the word he killed himself while working at his dad's construction site by turning on the machine and jumping in front of it...I was first in tears that I just lost someone, but then I was just mad and angry that he thought that he had nothing to live for, he has a little brother he still needed to look after because his parents are mental. Then it just came to me that only waiting out time would make the whole eating at go away and the thought that if i hadn't fought with with him he might not have done it. But, it's not my fault or my problem just my burden to bare. Then one of my friends had a miscarriage and was in total pain and it happened on the job I went to help, but all I could do was be there and hope for the best and talk to he33r to try to calm her, but I was useless for anything else. Then one of my oldest friends had a set of twins and she named the one who came out first after me. This week I lost someone dear to me, was there for a good friend as she lost her first child at 3 months, and saw life appear. It's a lot to take in. BUT, MY MAIN TOPIC IS THAT WITH MEN LIKE THE EX I LOST THIS PAST WEEK IS THAT MOST GUYS NOT ALL, BUT MOST KEEP THEIR FEELINGS LOCKED UP AND IT'S LIKE A TICKING BOMB THAT US WOMEN WHO ARE OPEN TO TAKING ABOUT EVERYTHING, MIND YOU NOT LIKE A GOSSIP CIRCLE OR A SHRINK, BUT TO TALK ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. THOSE FEW MEN SEEM TO KEEP US WOMEN WAITING AND WAITING AND WAITING. MY QUESTION THIS TIME IS WHY ARE THEY LIKE THAT, AND WHAT ARE THEY WAITING FOR, BECAUSE PERSONALLY I'M TIRED OF WAITING!!!!!!