I AM......
I am alone, surrounded by friendship
I wonder do I have a heart left to love
I hear thunderstorms behind my tears
I see fuzzy images of my future so unsure what is next for me
I want something all my own, that seems to never come close enough to grab.......
I pretend to smile everyday
I feel lost without someone to show me there is still light in the world, to show me the way
I touch my pulse and don't know if I 'm pretending that too without knowing it...
I worry a friend is all I will ever be in this life...
I cry every night knowing all I've lost is only going to get worse til it's me who's next in line...
I understand the books I read more than my own life...
I say I love you without meaning because I've lost the knowledge of what it feels like anymore...
I dream of day I'm truly happy above all my pain
I try to forget my past and what awaits tomorrow
I hope someday my life winds down and starts to make sense again...
I am alone, surrounded by friendship, will it always be enough to keep me waking-up everyday?
Or will the pain I subside in the back of heart burst...killing me...?
I Cannot Do This Alone
ReplyDeleteBy Dietrich Bonhoeffer
O God, early in the morning I cry to you.
Help me to pray
And to concentrate my thoughts on you:
I cannot do this alone.
In me there is darkness,
But with you there is light;
I am lonely, but you do not leave me;
I am feeble in heart,
but with you there is help;
I am restless,
but with you there is peace.
In me there is bitterness,
but with you there is patience;
I do not understand your ways,
But you know the way for me.